Hey 2020 me, how are you?

How Dad, mom? How everyone in Pixie? How everyone in uni? Are they treating you well?

Why you ask? I thought you are me and you already know what happened? We didn't let mom's toxicity into your life, you love everyone in Pixie and it's starting to become your 2nd home, and we are hyper focusing on learning frontend!

That's great! Do you know how you could focus on learning stuff without having to think about other things in life?

Didn't you remember? We still have something with MT need to take care of and that were messing your life, so no you absolutely not focus at all! But we don't have a fulltime job to take away half of your time and energy. So we have time to learn what you think is important. We don't need as much friends because you already have Pixie, we still hang out with uni friends, and that comes naturally, even after they graduated.

I'm kinda stuck now! I don't feel motivated anymore and I think I need more people in my life to feel as whole. I'm eating well but not as good as home, I know how to cook now! I have money~! But I don't feel as well as before.

Ok! seem like you have everything that we have dreamed of. But I do thing you are missing a thing, which I have to admit, this is my fault to not focusing you when you were here, which is watering your relationships. Yes, we are the best here, everyone love you, but they don't know who you are, why you do the thing that you do, mainly you were just not being vaulnerable with people you care, and you also don't know about their stories..

Hmm interesting, what do you think I should do?

Dude I don't know, i'm just you and even worse version of you in the past. Come on, I just know how to focus and learn the things that we both love, which is frontend!

Haiz ok I guess I just moving on and do more the things that make me feel good then! How you could focus on learning?

Hey! All the good things that happened to you is because of you were focus on the thing you do best. Coding, Helping people, Small conversations with old people. When you are totally in the zone, there always something good will happen, I just believe so, and you just need to believe as well! In short, just keep in mind that good thing will eventually happen, you just need to put the work! Keep learning, keep talking, and keep loving!

Thanks man! Thanks for always believe in us!

Sure thing, now it's your turn, you numbnuts!

Pick up the phone!

What's now? just do it, don't call me again!

I listened to you and starting to do, but I'm just still not want to do :(

Have you consider omachi noddles + diet coke combo? They slap! then do the work, you x2 energy, also keep your workspace small, you just have a xl bed before but super effecient remember? Just open laptop, check email first, then do something on the list!

dam you know me! but what if none of the work matters? if I choose the wrong path?

hey you were never expecting results at any kind, you just do it because you love it! not apply to your career but also your relationships as well! remember the time you drove MT to get food just because you like doing it for her? you were never asked for more. Be happy with yourself and do the things you love man. <3

that's it? I don't have to share anything with other people? and just do it?

NO! but if they asked, pls share it.. it's your thing, if they judged, then they judged. if they dont? then do it without the need of telling, it’s fine because you love doing it, and you are not a performative man :)

Thanks! Now please go call our dad!

K k, I will..